getch your bonfire on

in answer to the poll (which i am shocked, by the way, that no one has commented on) i vote reciprocalities; this pretty much based on that for me they end the same, at least mine often, with what seems like kindof a whiz-banger, even if this is often in the form of the not happened whiz banger, "it's over?!?!?" which i guess at least isn't something that happens in novels and certainly not in movies these days or songs of the pop.

2. am i distraught by the blog usage for what had seemed to me a pretty focused farm use - discovering farm in its many forms anyways and then you've gone and written about the poker night and even mentioned the restaurant (and hell, without mentioning the food that much)? no, not terribly. yes. I liked it being about the farm, altho im not sure gary had caught on that that was my initial motive anyways. Um, i also am enjoying the talking to you: so given that im not sure i understand this part of "where is will wheaton,": "i have figured out the strategy, but am too bored with it to apply it - knowing that polarities consist necessarily in everything, would avoiding the application be disingenuous and, as i accused bryan of, erecting before myself an impasse - inextricable from this is the aspect of competition, from which i completely, comprehensively, more or less deliberately, dropped out of many years ago" is this the strategy of poker, life, or something else, or the kind of life that poker games are like. I've enjoyed the gameplaying this past week here in the mid-west (is everyone clear that rachel and I are staying at here mom's house in st louis after having worked our last season at quail hill farm in amagansett new york and furthermore, before the next reel, that we will be moving to burlington, etc, see below: that's probably an etiquette that has been figured out for blogging, what to presume you know, im sure you don't look like an avatar.

anyways i think its clear that pink clouds has no limits, that's why you're invited, this you being rachel, i wouldn't invite anyone that i wanted to put limits on, so you can interpret that as pretty snobby pretty easily. but.

notes on above: gary is our one commentor thus far, i think i left out the part about why/how the games allow me at least to get my game on here, and how the midwest is different, and actually looked really nice today in the sun, as brown as . . . but ill be happy for a bit of cold.

is this the place for a full on discussion of game-ungame, i guess Rachel, my thing with the blog is i try to make it fun for me and the audience, thats right, something im saying about the blog is audience audience audience, - and i sure as shit aint saying you should treat it the same, just that that seems to be how i go about it, thus far, be it meandering as all get out, need not return it doesn't, but THEY are out there or something for me for now. love

wil wheaton where are you

thursday night we went to savor restaurant with 6 others, and

poll: are poems to short stories more like polarities, reciprocalities, or both

i was thinking about this while playing hearts and spades with bryan and liz, and also during the disaster that was poker last week - i seem to feel i have figured out the strategy, but am too bored with it to apply it - knowing that polarities consist necessarily in everything, would avoiding the application be disingenuous and, as i accused bryan of, erecting before myself an impasse - inextricable from this is the aspect of competition, from which i completely, comprehensively, more or less deliberately, dropped out of many years ago -



however, at the restaurant, having three bottles of exquisite red - a barolo, an amarone, and a shiraz (which i normally gag at but not this time) - my sense detail feelers kicked into high gear, and there was the application

and even in reading these alice munro stories, i do get a bit bored once i remember the strategy she's employed - but until then it's fun

josh might disapprove of this use of pink clouds -

list of horror movies to get: saw I, high tension, exorcism of emily rose, new texas chainsaw, saw II -

meanderings

i'm not quite sure i have this figured - a moment ago i looked at the pink clouds through another window and viewed two comments on josh's last post - one by a person named gary and one by myself - in any case, am working some on the blog since josh is using the master business planner book (thanks patty gentry) and i am oozing about still in a bit of malaise - it's finally the weekend for the rest of the world so oh hell

today we saw a nice exhibit at the contemp. museum in st louis - a nice bunch of artists doing different things with portraiture, mainly, and a bit of cindy sherman - but the artists doing different degrees of posing their models, or allowing models to be posing, or themselves becoming their own beloved models (these were the weakest for me, pictures of the artist as lonely artist, camera shutter cord and all so visible)

the best was a split screen video of nightclubbers, individually staged in front of a bright white screen, dancing at buzzclub in london, barely 20s mostly it seemed, with tired beers and all had cigarettes and funky h and m outfits - one woman whose outfit, a belly-button baring dress, turtle-necked, was so confusing, made me confused about anatomy - how the hips or legs could possibly have been moving in cooperation with the belly button - she was shy at first with her arms behind her back then got into it after the first explosive breaking point in that track

they were all discomfortingly like kin

and we ate at a nepali restaurant started by a man with a master's in social work and public health who was tired of seeing so many fat and heart-diseased folks - more or less a less-spicey version of much east indian food i've had, but quite welcome in this week with no name

Is Pink Clouds?

so i was going to look for this blog on the internet, and some of you who know about the internet would have immediate answers for me, should you be able to find me, but more of that to follow, & im not finding the site on my googling of possibilities, but granted i haven't searched thru the blogger network itself.

It did all give an interesting look at what pink clouds is about in the old consciousness, or new one if that is what you call google: the public imagination. We've definitely got some confluence and this is what to think about I guess on the preceding towards name: exhibit A is pink clouds a fractal thing. i didn't know but im like "cool," after all, as i mentioned reading the math thing, done some math in past, and happy to remember the self similar thing, which at the time i first heard it was already a happy coincidence with the thousand golden lions in each hair of a golden lion statue of some buddhist text. that all beside the point except to say there are the fractal pink clouds, but yet they exist again, and in an organic farm context to boot, i see on my google search, at meadowland farm (i think it was called) in washington state on the blog of selfsame farm there is a picture of what the person called pink clouds, and here i thought at the time i first thought it that these things didn't at least yet exist, sounded kinda sci-fi and were patterns, maybe, maybe just a pretty sequined picture.

Other sites was the joshua may philosophy site, kinda metaphysics stuff, not me you should know, and a cool quote collection link that produced this: "A kiss about palm trees speeding by, trailing pink clouds when you drive down the Strip sizzling with champagne. A kiss about spotlights fanning the sky and the swollen sea spilling like tears all over your legs." Dangerous Angels by Francesca Lia Block which im not yet sure (will search) is a real book or not

let's just say pink clouds is starting to bring us into the fractal dimensions of unicorns existence levels and such.

to be fair ive just started my research of lia block, seems to exist.

on to the more exciting farm aspects which will of course become increasingly more important, we just got our richters catalog, that, while i have read varying reports on their quality, certainly do sell alot of herbs, more than rachel and I will need for the first year, and i think we can stick to the safe ones. some that i saw upon perusal that i was really down with are: chamomile, echinacea, feverfew, lavender, I mean the list could go on and on. so we will probably stick to ten or twenty i would guess that can be used in teas or salves - oh, wasabi was one that i don't think I can pass up on, - as I may or may not have mentioned we are having an asian theme and obviously . . . we also went to an asian market here in belleville illinois yesterday, they were selling stuff from mexico and cali that didn't look to appealing: daikon, bok choi, napa cabbage. The store on the whole was really cool though and we did get buckwheat soba noodles (lots of suprise protein), more later

photos?

the beginning

so, this is like the beginning of pink clouds the blog, not necessarily pink clouds the farm, because that is more a name in progress even tho the website is as permanent . . . well thats hardly in stone these days either, now is it?

so i was saying rachel and i are moving to vermont burlington in a matter of days, and we hope to have an incubator farm in burlinton's intervale program (i wont be providing links (i mean that's like so 04)) (note to self-others: what about So Farm) and we've done a bit of farming on long island, the end of it, for three years, and as I've just gotten some pictures of our time there from someone I'll put at least one or two up of Quail Hill, hopefully with one or both of us in it. You should know, don't sell these pictures, they are copyrighted by photographer, kathryn szoka, there youve have had what she told me and she probably thought at the time i wasn't very blog inclined in the first place but . . . alas so we are trying to start this farm which may or may not be attached to intervale, probably in any case is going to have alot of oriental veggies (greens, radishes, eggplant) but also lots of other stuff and possibly eventually a growing herbs thing, both native to vermont and oriental.

so, indeed, one could tell you one's whole story on the first night of blogging, but i daresay that wouldn't leave one much to say later, and i'm not sure there is a whole story, i just finished a book mentioned godel's incompleteness theory, no (mathematical system/lang) can ever be complete and same with the partial cyborgs (Harraway)

so these are things to think about when/as we are trying to come up with the farm name, one previous name is unmentionable (talk about a teaser (go find that out private eye)) and another was aleph, which is a transfinite number from the afforementioned book (david foster wallace) and a hebrew letter which might have made a neat symbol but rachel and I are thinking is too "heady"

(i should mention I hope in coming days she will be on this thing dialoging if not discoursing (ie with you out there in, urg, i hate to use such a candied word, the bloggosphere)

extras: pink clouds hopes to have some online herb distribution, it would be all organic and about two acres.

take it away